Sitting on my Studio Floor, Defeated.

Lately, I've been walking into my "studio" in an attempt to get some kind of official AP Work done. What ends up happening is me taking a few steps in, looking around, and then laying down on the nearest patch of clear carpet, and just staring up at the ceiling. The sheer weight of how hard I don't feel inspired is enough to literally make me collapse to the ground.

During my time with myself, I tend to think of what I love, and in turn, how it hurts me. So as to avoid getting too personal and to keep my blog related to my actual WISE project, let me just talk about photography.

I truly love Photography, so much so that I have a tendency to capitalize it randomly. At times, it feels like it is another person in my life who I love and care for. I entered AP Art in the hope that I would be able to spend my entire senior year doing exactly what I love, conditioning myself to how I would hope to spend the rest of my life. But much to my dismay, the type of photography I love and am good at does not work with AP Art. A friend of mine recently said on Facebook that "[Nick Morales] is the best I know at capturing the essence of FUN in a single shot."

In no attempt to sound cocky, but that's what I do. I capture moments that will never in a million years, be replicated exactly as it happened. And I try to make them look damn good.

There is no planning.
There are no thumbnails.
There is no changing the image after peers tell me what's wrong with it.

It either works, or it doesn't. It is quite litteraly, do or die photography. And I thrive on that. But I can't make that work for AP. After realizing that my current concentration has hit a dead end, I've been trying desperately to see if I can make my concert photography work, but I can't. It's not even like I can show up with photos from a new concert every week because I don't have the money to go to a concert, every week. And it honestly kills.

I have lost all desire to create Fine Art pieces and to continue my concentration. I just don't feel inspired to work with my very, very limited resources. AP is absolutely, positively, killing me.

"Yay!" for a happy post.